Scent of a woman

sorry for the delay..

please listen to me and listen carefully..

this is on a public platform because post conversing with ami about the people we knew this seemed to be a common thing.. but even he was rooting mostly for you in the end and i do really want to send this as a message to the rest who are like sisters to me whose grief i feel as well..

im keeping all my biases aside and saying this purely keeping all the factoids in mind..

you need to disconnect him from your life.. its not been a symbiotic relationship for a long time but really, lets face it, it has been parasitic.. you need to cut off the limbs that are disparaging to the rest of your working body and draining away the energy.. its a hard pill to swallow and a much worser decision to make but it needs to be done cos 7,8,9 years is a long time to dedicate to a dead relationship.. mourn for the loss, dont grieve.. celebrate your existence.. you have to demonstrate to the one depending on you that things dont always need to come in pre-packaged pretty forms.. remember the strength that was once you and it will all become easier.. leave your benevolence and calm aside.. thats what has been detrimental in your case because time has elapsed and your eyes are only opening now.. dont waste one more minute of on more day for your freedom to be you.. and then it is all que se ra se ra.. there was surry.. there will be another who is mad about you.. you the way you are not the crap they want to dole you out to be.. i want to see the fierceness in you again.. the silent angst and the wicked determination that sets you apart even in the nyc crowd of well heeled manicured fingernails and toes..

i am always there.. my home is always open.. take a breather, lets chill with coffee, and let kai's baby warmth innocent smile and smell rejuvenate you.. pick up your belongings from here rightfully and start all over.. you have immense support from people who are loyal to you..

if not anything you can always sing - stand by me and garner support :)

please remember - i will always love you..